Monday morning. Trying to get back in the groove. Last night allergies knocked me out and I finally went to bed early enough to catch up on the rest I missed last weekend. Saturday I covered for everyone I used to work for, and sacrificed my freedom for a couple hours of retail work and an evening of returning to food service. Nothing like waiting tables to remind you to be humble. (Seriously though, I believe everyone needs to have experienced both the retail and food service-world to develop into decent humans)
Lately I have been wrapping up some commissions, lettering envelopes and finalizing orders with printers. Isn’t it strange how doing the work you love doesn’t feel like working? Hoping to introduce even more design and photography projects into my schedule, just to make a busy life a little busier..
I am back to the point where I am trying to decide what I want to be doing and it seems that figuring out how to get there is the most important, but also the hardest, part. Some days I am ready to apply for school and get a design degree or go for a graduate program, others I consider the debt I am already in and realize I don’t need to be adding to that. Some days I am ready to pack up and move back to Norway the very next day, others I am okay with waiting it out and finding my peace where I am. Some days I feel like I am able to make great work and that if I keep trucking and producing pieces freelancing I will make it, others I know I will never be good enough and my designs will stay mediocre.
Let’s give a shout out to imposter syndrome-what keeps me sharp, critical and humble but also never satisfied or confident in my own work.